So, I think that I have some sort of a brain problem. It doesn't seem to matter how much sleep (or how little for that matter) that I get, I am still irrationally tired during the day. Now, I could write this off as some sort of a physical manifestation of my dread of school as of late, but I am also experiencing said problem on the weekends, during which I dread school much, much less. Perhaps it is merely a symptom of being a professional student, especially one with a history of anxiety.

For some reason lately, anxiety has also been rising. There is very little reason for this that I can see. Sometimes I have been able to figure out why anxiety has risen and sometimes I am just as perplexed as I could be. Nine weeks ago my life changed considerably, then slightly less so seven weeks ago. But since then, things have pretty well reached equilibrium. I will say that it is a dynamic equilibrium, but really, aren't those the best kind. Afterall, static equilibrium equals death if you are a cell, I suspect that the same is true of a relationship or a person.

Despite kind of disliking change in my personal sphere, I am ready for another, and soon. I need to shed this crummy semester and move onward and upward, as they say. Summer can not come too soon. Only five weeks of class left (24.5 days) and one hellish finals week. Then I get to get lost in research and the things (and people) in life that will be carried on into the summer.

I recieved awesome birthday presents from my wonderful girlfriend on Saturday night. (For those of you "in the know", you are right, my b-day isn't actually until May 15, but she just couldn't wait.) A book that I have wanted for four years, a lovely piece of art/sex toy that I would love to display in my living room, and also, the crowning glory, a beautiful Aslan Leather strap-on harness!!! Boy am I glad that we had a discussion about harnesses over spring break so that she knew the kinds of harness that I would buy myself. Recieving this harness is really the realization of a long-held dream. Now, I need to peruse options, decide on and purchase a dildo for my new apparatus. I don't know how long I would have waited before actually buying myself a harness (as it has been a real plan for about four years). Really, it was a perfect gift in many ways. The best gifts are often those that you want but haven't yet/would never really get around to buying for yourself, I think.

The weather has been beautiful, high of 72 today. Hopefully park/picnic plans solidify and come through for tonight.
I am less tired now. I am off to do some last minute studying for my neurobiology test that I have at 10:30.