Well, here we are, the middle of yet another blizzard-like night. Shovelled the driveway today, but why? the snow has filled it in again! Luckily, a guy from down the street drove by while I was shovelling and offerred to bring his snow-blower over to help out with this waist-high drift made by the snow plows that was blocking our cars in. How nice of him! However, that didn't stop my hands and back from becoming quite sore. Quite sore.
Trivial Pursuit fun was had with my middle sister and her boyfriend.
My little sister came down and is staying with us tonight before heading back to IC tomorrow in preparation for the women's rowing team winter training trip to Florida. She doesn't want to go anymore, doesn't want to be on the team anymore, and seems to have some anxiety about the entire experience. Thus, I have ansiety about her anxiety. I just keep telling her that she doesn't have to stay on the team if she isn't enojying it anymore what is the point. Also, I tell her how awesome flying is. I LOVE it.
It has been really awesome having Bee in the house tonight. Cate, Bee, and I watched TV and movies and such and all squeezed onto our loveseat-sized couch. Much fun was had by all. I really like the feeling of all of us having fun together. Thus, I have anxiety about how it isn't that way much anymore and may never be again. I don't like change much, not that kind of change, anyway, I guess. Can you tell?
Also, her car is parked on the street in front of our house. There are no signs up, but I fear that she may be ticketed, towed, or buried by snow plows because she is there and it won't fucking stop snowing! Or that, perhaps, the snow plows won't come down our road because she is there and then we will all be trapped! Anxiety!
Also, Meredith is supposed to fly back tomorrow. I am really excited to see her again, I have missed her a lot. However, there are several problems with her coming back:
1) she hates flying and will have had an anxious day.
2) I am picking her up at the airport. How early should i be? Do I wait outside for her? Do I park and meet her inside? WHERE inside? What if I can't find her? What if I only add to her anxiety?? What about this FUcking Weather???
3) Her coming back into town signals that school is going to start very very soon and my heart and brain are not ready for that! Anxiety.
And I need to get a new pair of jeans as my only decent one has holes now, but I haven't yet.
And this weather!
Can you tell that all of this is stressing me out?!?